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I can feel my sanity nearing the edge, I just am about to lose it.  Today is the first day in a very long time, where everything seems to be coming down.  I have a sick two year old, and all y0u parents know that when they are sick, their routine is totally f***** up, sleepless nights, not wanting to go to bed, not to mention constant crying, whining and tantrums. When work, managing a household and everything else a woman does, is thrown on top of that, you get a basket case ready to break.  I think I am losing control, the ability to think straight under pressure, I used to thrive under pressure, my carreer requires me to be under pressure…something has gone terribly wrong.  I had a good friend of mine call me and tell me that our friendship is on the brink of disaster if I don’t put any effort into it, truth is, I just don’t care, not now anyways.  I am done, I need peace, solace, quiet, I need to be left alone so I can regroup, yes, that is what is needed, salvation from society, from everyday life, from……me, my own worst enemy.

So, for all those who have read my previous post, I am not preggers.  Yes, my monthly cycle came calling today, about ten days late.  This tardiness is highly unusual, I am usually precise give or take a few days due to the length of the months.  I am so happy, I would be extatic, however, my son’s current cold limits my emotions, due to the fact that every ounce of sympathy, pity and sorrow is focused on him right now, and the several sleepless nights that are ahead of me.  Honestly, I am relieved, not that another baby would not make me happy, it is just not the right time.  I need to be in the right frame of mind, not to mention my son needs to be potty trained and in part time pre-school for my own sanity. I am also thinking about the disability, I need to work more, in order to collect a decent check.  Well, there it is, another day in the life of me, living in the OC, not much excitment today, we will see what tomorrow brings.

For all those you economical people out there, the 2008 Toyota Corolla, a sight for sore yese, not to mention the price tag something to talk about. I have the 2006 version, LE model, very nice, clean and good ride, but the 2009 was totally re-invented, it almost looks like a Lexus. It may not be in the luxury rank, but nice it is. Fully loaded it would probably run you close to $19, 000.00, however, thanks to those internet specials you can probably get a thousand or two knocked off. The negative side, is that leather you will not get, but it is a small price to pay for good fuel efficiancy and a good price tag. I am not disappointed, I really love my Corolla, I do want to move up to a luxury vehicle, however, all the money I am saving thanks to this car, is making me rethink my decision. Take advantage of the deals, Toyota is now offering 0% financing upon qualification, which is probably the best thing out there, so if fuel efficiency is what you are looking for, then this is the ride for you.

I think today weas the first day in many months that I decided to go to Sam’s Club for bulk items.  For all those who know me, I love diamonds.  I always thought that a good diamond had to be purchased from a reputable jewelers like Robbin’s Bro’s.  Shortly after I decided that, that was conpletely untrue.  Many of my girlfriends were sporting over two CT. worth of diamonds purchased downtown Los Angeles.  Definitely cheaper, if you know your stuff, then you cannot get ripped off.  Then today I realized that even shopping downtown L.A. for a diamond was just stupid.  As I was slowly drooling over the displays of ice, I found my next purchase. A 1 CT. white cold cross, encrusted with diamonds, simply beautiful and blingy.  The price tag for this purchase was $ 638.00, hard to blieve but true, the quality of diamonds was not that bad eather.  The point is, if you have a Sam’s membership, and a Master card, which is the only thing they accept, purchase you diamonds there.  This is probably the best investment even in these economical times, if you have the money to pay it off, do it.  If you just are a frivolous spender, then stay away.

My husband came home from work with sex on his mind.  I know I have touched on this subject before, however, I am seriously done with this.  Right now he is sulking in the garage because I told him that unlike men, we women don’t have penetration on our mind a million times a day.  Honestly, I am so tired, after working my afternoon shift, picking up the kid, coming home at seven, cooking dinner, making lunch  and cleaning up the mess, the last thing on my mind is doing the hanky panky.  Why must we go through this, I feel like this issue keeps on getting worse, this is the first time I have noticed these constant arguments over sex.  I am just not into it, when someone keeps on harping about it, it just turns you off.  I am tired of just being the receiver, I feel bad, and not to mention the guilt trips that follow after, that makes me feel worse.  I can seriously see people getting divorsed over this, it just gets to be too much to handle.  Sex should be a shared act, even better with emotion, I can’t see ehy these men don’t get that.  I would not force myself on anyone if they were not into me at that momemt, it is just not right.

I went for a deep tissue back massage, and the therapist gasped.  My back was riddled with knotts.  I am a very high stresses kind a person, I don’t do well with relaxation, I need to feel overwhelmed, that is the way my life works.  Even when I do try to relax, I start thinking of ways to make my life complicated.  So she is rubbing these knotts out, and zi am squirming in pain, but boy is she a miracle worker.  Shed is one of the best therapists that has ever worked on my back, and though the experience was a little painful, it really did help me.  The only thing that I wish there was less of, was talking, sometimes when people rub your back, you just need some peace.  Anyways, my knotts were impressive, she was also shocked, my neck was also wound up tight and so were my glutes.  this was the first time that anyone has ever pulled down my pants and rubbed my arse, it was quite nice, and I would recomend it to anyone.

I recently was told that I should change carreers, I am a maxillofacial x-ray technologist by profession, however, I love the culinary arts.  I had my folks over for dinner a few nights ago, and boy was I surprised when my parents dubbed me oe of the best chef’s by far.  I love to cook, restaurant style specifically.  I enjoy dining out when our budget permits, I love French influence in my food, and that is what I base most of my cooking on.  I really love spending time in the kitchen, and often times my food reflects that.  So the next day I received two phone calls from my mother and father respectevly.  Mother said that I should change my career to become a professional chef, and father said that his friend raved about the leftover seafood crepes in a cream chive sause that I made for dinner the previous night.  My heart was elated for that is the biggest complimemt anyone can ever give me.  So as i contemplate a career change, i am secretly scared, culinary school is way too expensive and I invested to much time and effort in what I do now to just walk away.  So as far as the cooking thing goes, i will be happy whith being my families own personal chef.

For almost $ 30 a ticket, this four hour event is definitely not worth it, yes we did walk away with about eight pounds of fairly good candy but not worth it.  California Adventure is not that big of a park, so with a handful of rides to ride, only certain ones are open for the night.  Yes I know, what a rip off, but that’s how it goes.  The toddler was free, but the rest of us had to pay.  I rode three rides, the lines were non existant, that was a plus, but not for the amount they charge. I think a reasonable price would have been twety dollars per ticket but it’s Disney were talkin about.  Anyhoo, candy pass out stations were set up through out the park, more than I thought there would be.  That was probably the best part of the evening, watching my beautiful spidy dressed angel go up to the different employees demanding ” Mo candy, mo candy!” Honestly I probably wuld have  not changed anything knowing the way it was going to be, the experience is ok, but only once, I doubt I will ever go again.

Really guys, we need to be thinking about this, Christmas is less than two months away.  Every year, it gets harder and harder to buy preseants for everyone, honestly I have what you call a Xmas block.  I am sure all you people out there suffer from this condition. The brain is so overwhelmed with all the people you need to buy for , that you actually don’t know what to buy anyone. I have been suffering from this for as long as I can remember, that is why I give out gift cards, clever right? Wrong, thatshows you that there is no thought going into the gift.  I personally love gift cards, they are the best things ever, but , I am also a very difficult person to shop for, unless you are my husband.  He always knows what to give, diamonds or a great designer bag, however, with the state of the economy going to hell, so will our preseants this year.  Then again we are all losing the point of Christmas, not for gifts, but to celebrate the birth of Christ, and for all those non believers out there, enjoy your gift and I guess I won’t see you in Heaven, but then again yuo don’t beliave in Heaven.

I have gayness in my famly, I do love them as individuals but doesn’t mean I agree with what they stand for.  I can accept the fact that my cousin recently got married to another woman, but I truly believe this is wrong. THE WORLD IS GOING TO HELL why make it even hotter with this disturbing idea of legalizing same sex marriage.  Yeah, yeah constitutional rights, do you guys honestly believe you will be considered normal when most of you act flamboyantly gay! I respect you, however, I don’t want my children growing up in a world of immorality. The way we advertise Yes on prop 8 here in Orange County? We stand on each street corner waving big poster signs, loving each honk of acceptance.  I feel sorry for thesealternate lifestyle individuals, including my cousin and her partner, unless the whole population turns gay, these folks will never be looked at seriously.  I love Ellen DeGeneris, I have nothing against her, however, when you chose to be gay, you also make a choice to be different, comes with the territory.  Sorry, it is just the way it is.  Some people still think interracial marriages are wrong what makes you think same sex marriage is going to be approved. Don’t hate me because I am right, afterall this is my opinion, not yours, and if you do get mad…that means I am right.