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I can feel my sanity nearing the edge, I just am about to lose it.  Today is the first day in a very long time, where everything seems to be coming down.  I have a sick two year old, and all y0u parents know that when they are sick, their routine is totally f***** up, sleepless nights, not wanting to go to bed, not to mention constant crying, whining and tantrums. When work, managing a household and everything else a woman does, is thrown on top of that, you get a basket case ready to break.  I think I am losing control, the ability to think straight under pressure, I used to thrive under pressure, my carreer requires me to be under pressure…something has gone terribly wrong.  I had a good friend of mine call me and tell me that our friendship is on the brink of disaster if I don’t put any effort into it, truth is, I just don’t care, not now anyways.  I am done, I need peace, solace, quiet, I need to be left alone so I can regroup, yes, that is what is needed, salvation from society, from everyday life, from……me, my own worst enemy.