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Recently I have been trying to relive my past, not really doing things that I used to do when I was 20, but thinking about things and trying to get in contact with people from the past.  I guess this can explain my sudden bout of depression and distance from my husmand.  He knows that somethings is up, tries to take me out, make me feel good, buys me things, but something is just not right.  I thinks about how things would be if I had made other choices and dated other people, I feel connected to other people and that is putting a wedge between my spouse and I.  My temper has gone south, not to mention my patience with the two year old.  I drove to Pachanga casino today, just to get out, they all joined me, however, it was to no aveil.  This feeling deep within my gut still remains, I cannot confront what is so disturbing yet I know what I want.  The fear of change is tugging at my heart, and though love is still present, excitment lacks.