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I am so not ready for this Christmas, it seems like the past year has blown over like a feather.  I think as Iget older I am finally realizing that times flies.  I just feel so glum about the whole thing, I’m nt sure if the depression is slowly sneeking back into my head, but I just don’t feel like celebrating.  Part of my problems is that I just don’t have the fionancial resources to do want needs to be done in preparation of a Holiday. I am barely holding on by my fingertips in trying to pay off bills, I just hate the expectations that come with Christmas.  I have friends calling me up, asking me if we are doing a gift exchange, I don’t even see half these people during the year, why now?  So, yeah, I’m pretty bitter, I don’t want to make Christmas all about gift, what about the Birth of Jesus?  But putting that aside, statistics show that many people suffer from depression around this time of year.  Christmas is about twenty days away and I have shopped for zero people, not even my own son.  Now that is sad!