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I guess this will be my last entry since the editors of this site feel that I am not bringing enough revenew for their wallets. I never understood the technical stuff behind the blogging jargone, however, I only was sure about one thing, I loved talking about anything and everything! I definitely will not keep on writing on this site if I am not getting paid for it, afterall, I am no fool, but I did enjoy the short time I had here and the relief I felt after venting about my daily incidents her in the OC.  Most of all, venting about my husband and the rest of my life in general.  So, I have moved on from the rejection and I will find some other place that will want to hear my venting, my stories, my thoughts, my life in general. I bid you goodbye, but I warn you, this is not the last of me, I will be back and I will be bad, but until next time……….take care of yourself and each other.( ha, ha, ha, Jerry Springer was the best!)

Being a mother is one of the most rewarding jobs anyone can ever wish for, however, being a mother does not mean you are perfect.  Deep down inside there is a hidden desire to aspire to be more than just a babysitter and a woman that everyone goes to when something is wrong. There are mothers who work full-time and that go home and can be great mother’s, then there is me, a part-timer by choice, and when I go home I want to put my child to sleep.  I am selfish in the sense that, I do envy the single woman who has a fast paced career and that goes home to peace and quiet, I am envious of the woman who goes home to a well kept house thanks to the housekeeper and the nanny, of the executive who has a personal assistant that takes care of her needs and runs her errands. I guess all that glitters is not gold, because when I do talk to these people they envy my life.  I guess woman will be selfish no matter what kind of life style they lead and mothers will always have hidden desire to lead a life other than their own, but at the end of the day, when I hold my child close and look in his eyes, I know that I am in the perfect place because there is no other place I’d rather be.

I truly wonder what George W. Bush thinks of himself when he wakes in the morning?  ” Gee, I really F***ed up this Nation, good thing I’m almost outta here” or maybe ” Damn, they fooled me once, shame on them, they fooled me twice shame on I don’t know….you can’t fool me twice, gees, I’m confused!”. Or maybe he thinks he was the greatest thing since Washington, who knows, but we know that we are not only in an economic meltdown we are seriously screwed! Thank you Mr. President, thank you very much for making these the worst eight years any Nation can ever have, and for all of you who voted for this texan brainiac Congratulations you F***ed us in the A** as well, good for you, may you lose all your wealth and status and any material posession you hold dear, you stupid, stupid SOB’s! I think us sane people saw this coming when he stated upon his innauguration that he wanted to finish what his daddy started, excuse me but the other George was  just as ridiculous, what did he want to finish?  He accomplished and saw through to the execution of Saddam, although that is a good thing, that is the only thing he wanted to do, cause seriously , nothing else has been done.  So, George W., give yourself a hand, cause you sucked and you  did not stand by your people as a leader should.  Personally I think his yearly income should be forfitted and should be given back to pay up some of the debts he put this Country in, not to mention all the poor people who are suffering as repercussions from his presidency!

It’s funny how things happen in life, one simple phone call and your life can change drastically, and so can feelings.  If you have been thinking about someone from your past that was linked to you somewhat more than just a friend, keep it in the past.  Trust me, a Pandora box can be opened if you invite those people back into your life.  Feelings are something we cannot control, I don’t care what anyone says on that matter, your heart cannot be programmed.  So If you are willing to keep your current relationship going in a positive direction, do not, I repeat do not open the door to disaster, unless you know you are totally over it.  Even then sometimes we cannot foresee the change of heart we might have.  It is possible to love someone and lust over someone at the same time, so beware! Make 2009 a good year, not one filled with pain and disaster.

OMG, I need braces again!  I remember going through this once before, and I have been wearing my retainers religiously, what the heck!  So I go to the orthodontist and he tells me that my bite is shifting and that one of my teeth needs to be adjusted, well retainers wont’t do the job to realign your bite so I am stuck with braces.  One year is what he tells me, but longer is what I think, my teeth are straight but lately I have been noticing shifting when I look at the pictures.  I constantly take pictures of my teeth to see the change, yes, the average person can say that they are perfect, but I know, I know that they are not.  It has become an obsession and even my husband has been noticing the craziness due to my teeth.  He often jokes with me that I have snaggles but what the heck.  i work in the business and I get discounted rates, plus my insurance covers fifty percent.  I just want this to be over with real soon.  So here I go again, anyways keep wearing your retainers just foe the heck of it.

Do you people notice anything wrong with this title?  It has been stated that Jett Travolta was last seen entering the restroom of his parents vacation home on Thursday and was not found until the following Friday ( late that is).  So, I don’t know about you people, but when my husband or anyone goes into my restroom and does not come out after a half hour, I gently knock on the door or try to hear some sound to know that they are ok in there.  I don’t get it, where were the rest of the family or staff members, at what point do you see someone go into the restroom and not question there whereabouts after an hour or so.  Where the parents not home? That would not be so bad since he was sixteen, however, you would try to include your child on a New Years Day celebration.  I am not doubting or even questioning the love that these two have for their children, I just want to know how you can go one whole day without knowing your under-aged child’s location! Resort or not, you are still in foreign land, I don’t give a crap if I own the whole United States security service watching my child, I still want to know, and they need to be next to me or my husband at all times.  There are rich murderers, child molesters, wackos out there.  In this case it was a horrible tragedy caused by a physical imperfection, my heart does go out to the Travolta’s and anyone who has ever lost a child, it is truthfully the worst pain that anyone can ever bare, I do wonder if in this case it could have been salvaged.

Well, what can I say, I’m still hoping that my employer has a change of heart and forks out some cash as a belated Christmas bonus.  I know, I know, don’t hold your breath.  You know, it is pretty low to give your employees a  Christmas bonus every single year and then all of a sudden without even an explanation we get nothing.  Employees count on bonuses as part of their salary, and when we are out about a grand, that hurts.  I think what bothers me the most is that my employer comes to work each day and brags about all the fancy purchases he has made and all the help he gives his girls including paying their mortgage and car payments and then turns around and gives us nothing.  If this present state of financial crisis has hit you hard, we understand, but don’t turn around and spend all this money infront of our faces.  This is a samll family owned business with six emplyees, which only four of them work hard, the other two just show up as an excuse to get paid.  We all know that the two emplyees are his daughters, but hey what can we say, at least he has not gotten rid of us.  But yeah, we’re all bitter, we need money too!

I have been so busy these past few weeks that I have been slacking off on writing anything.  Sure writer’s block is a big part of it, but seriously, if you think about it, this is pretty much free money.  Everyone has an opinioin right? Well, then, you are getting paid for your opinions.  All you have to do is waste five minutes of your day to right it down on your site and you get paid for it, sure it’s only one dollar, but at the end of the month it’s money you did not have before, not to mention the fact that no one can answer you back, and if they do, you don’t know what they look like and you can delete them if you wish.  SO yeah, I need to post more blogs so I can collect money that no other person is willing ti give me for my opinions!

 My husband just told me to go F*** myself because I told him that this year he really did suck at gift giving!  This follows my other two posts of not getting what I want for X-mas. I was trying to be honest because I felt very hurt and trust me I still do, being a mother, a housekeeper, an x-ray tech, a laundry mat, a short order cook and everything in between, not ever buying anything for myself, I figured once a year I would get something a little nicer than a few small wastes of money!  So honesty got me in trouble and seriously I just cannot get over this!  It’s like something went off in his head, he started great and at the beginning of this year he just went south, he missed valentines, mother’s day, our anniversary, and on my thirtieth birthday, I bought my own preseant!  What the hell is that about, so yeah I’m pretty ticked off.  I know, I know, just move on, but I just can’t! I am seriously over this, he is an ass****, and not to mention the fact that he calls me wicked names that would belittle any woman, so I just don’t know what to do anymore

Ladies, this is a fallow up to my previous blog of ” If he doesn’t get you what you want for Christmas”, well………………I did not get what I wanted, and I did not follow my advice.  I stated earlier that we shoul show appreciation because men get their feelings hurt, well, screw them!  What about my appreciation, I am a F***ing slave to this god **** house, I cook, I clean, I fix lunches, I take care of a two year old, I don’t shop for myself, not to mention all the laundry. I did not receive anything on Mother’s day, not to mention my five year wedding annyversary, and I am supposed to be greatful for a pair of ugly ass K-swiss tennis shoes a whole size smaller than my foot, a sports bra, some thong under wear from Victoria’s Secret, although I did love my perfume and gift card to Bloomingdales.  I was under the impression that he was gonna surprise me with what I really wanted which was the diamond pendant I mentioned earlier, with three hundred more dollars he could have purchased it, instead of buying a bunch of little things I don’t even want.  His come back was that he purchased a buch of things I needed.  News flash!  I hate sports, do you see me needing a sports bra?  I think not.  He swears I was bitching for a pair of K-Swisses, that was before I bought my pair of New Balances, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, he never listens.  And in reality, the thong underwear is for him, because the under wear I really needed was regular white bikibi briefs that I wear under my scrubs to work!   I need comfort not sex! Well, there you have it, another year another disappointment, guess from now on I’m just gonna purchase my own damn wants, call me selfish and self centered, but I am sure I am not alone!